As the world goes round, things change and ppl change. I dont like that to happen. Because you'll never know what you're gonna lose, what you're gonna be and how'd it affect you. Hmph. Sometimes when I think that something's definitely gonna work, I happen to screw up all the time. Yeah they tend to say that nothing's impossible but I dont think so. I'll end up asking whys' and what ifs'. Am I too possesive or too obsessive? I'm in confusion. I'm thinking to much. I hate myself and I feel like smacking myself right in the face for being so pathetic. I do look like I'm nonchalant all the time but I guess I just didnt let the real me to get out because I'm too afraid to face the facts at times. I dont even know what I'm talking about right now. Gahh. I think I need help? God is my only hope.