Its suddenly so clear, I shan't be afraid anymore.

I'm still hesitating, I know I'm going to regret it. Ahh.. fine. I won't do it since everyone disagrees. Its 1.42a.m. now and I still can't sleep. You shouldnt've hung up so early. I waited for the second call but it did not happen, you pig.

I have been swearing alot lately and I think its time to stop. I don't know how I got used to this habit or who influenced me but it gives satisfaction. Do you really have to ask? I don't think it matters even if I gave an answer because you'd still assume that its a yes. Maybe it'll make you feel good but have you ever thought for me, at all, all this while? I wouldn't blame you if you haven't. Perhaps you've been blinded by your new distraction. I made a deal with a friend. He's supposed to stop me from thinking about you. I thought I stood strong with my decision until earlier, I changed my mind. No, I dont want to stop thinking about you. There's no need of that if I don't feel comfortable with it. Saidanddone. Phewww.


I wished that there'd be a turn around in things. I wished that things would stay the same. I wished that I could freeze the moment.
Then, I came to a realisation that what happened, happened.
Things should remain the same for now, at least we have a connection.

I'm anxious, restless and tired. Every single second of the day.
Other that the above, its all good.

I'm so relieved. Never thought that I'd have the guts to do this. Aren't you proud of me? =)
And I think I sound like I'm in a state of depression or something. Oh right, I should be sleeping at this time.

Goodnight, world and you.