My life is a joke.

I just wanna cry everyday and drown myself in my pool of tears to death. Now all of you can have a good laugh about me, go on.

There is only one word that can describe what I'm feeling inside right now. Not hate, not anger, not dissatisfaction but - sad. Why, why did things have to turn out this way. I never wanted this day to come. There's not even a point saying all these right now because there's only hatred and anger in you and I do not wish to provoke you anymore. I just want you, YOU, back. As a being, as a someone. Thats all I want to say, hate me all you want.

I'm sorry.

Love,
J