ok so right now I'm sitting here in my room alone, sulking and thinking about all the shitty things in my life. i'm always depressed, always moody, always feeling dejected and such. what the fuck is wrong with me seriously? its always about relationships, fuck. my life is not all about relationships but when am i gonna get that shit outta my head? all these things just come to me automatically. i'm a person too affectionate but not committed enough in a relationship. what do i really want? i need to stop falling for all the wrong people, people who i barely even know. i'm a sucker for heart messers. i never failed to get myself in deep shit and frustration and embarrassment. right now, i'm just going towards the wrong direction, wrong person. someone who doesnt even give a damn, someone who just talks to me when he's bored, no wait. everyone talks to me only when they're bored. yeah its pretty sucky. i'm not gonna let my life go on like this anymore. i'm gonna set my priorities straight at this very moment and forget about all those minor shiz. i'm gonna stop thinking about you or anyone at all. lets just keep a distance between us, just so i can stop having crazy thoughts about you when nothing has ever even happened between us. second day of college tomorrow, time to get my head in the game and concentrate.

'if you dont daydream, you wont go bonkers.'

Love,

J