This is for you

Of those days when I was still yours, you've never really done anything or spoken up for me when I was picked on, by whoever. In other words, you've never done your part in offering your protection. I was just living in denial, telling lying to myself that you did. Winning is what matters the most to you. You never failed to want to win. Even for now. I keep getting the blame as always eventhough I've been keeping quite all along trying to avoid all thsese from happening, I'll just get random attacks from you. What do you want from me..? Its fine if you never intended to side me or back me up but I really hope that you wouldnt be one of them, who will pick on me or dramatize my life. I want to leave a good image, a good impression of you in my head. Thats all I'm asking for so please, stop doing what you've always been doing. I dont want you out of my head. I'm begging you, literally. Give me a buzz, if you ever read this and let me know if you're gonna help me in this. Thank you.


Love,
J