Karma?

I never believed in karma till now, I HAVE to believe it because its biting me in the ass right now.

I had the happiest moments in my life in about seven months ago, when I met someone. Someone who meant and still means so much to me. You, S. You make me feel that my life doesnt really suck, for once. We've had so may memories, so many songs, so many fights and we shed so many tears, for each other. Everything was so right, you fit me so right. Then, I fucked it. I'm sorry, for giving what we had a crack. Its my fault and I tried so hard to make it up to you. I tried to mend it till its finally over now, its your turn to fuck me over with what you're doing.

You hurt me with your actions and words every single day. You hurt me with your actions, publicly. I tried so hard to stay away. I tried so hard to back off. All I get is sarcasm and I'm always the one to be blamed. I'm not mad, really. I just really hope that you'll realise what you're doing to me because till now, you're still in denial. I really want you back, but not the current you and you know that. You're not the one I met seven months ago anymore. What happened to you? Come back.. I practically begged you, to do what you're supposed to do but you didnt. It was such an easy task and you didnt even wanna do it. You'd rather watch me hurt, in every way. Is it really that hard? I just don't see any effort in you wanting to get me back in your life.

I'm so tired, so worked out that I feel numb. Empty. So full of nothing. I can practically predict what you're gonna say to me because you tell me the same thing every single day. Do you actually know or care how I feel? The lies and betrayal.. I feel lied to and cheated on. All I hope for is you to realise what you're doing to me right now is really taking me to the end.. I just want you to feel for me, for once. I never expected the both of us to end this way. Apart from that, you've always loved me for who I am. You cared for me more than you cared for yourself. You'll never do anything, anything at all if you know it'll hurt me. I was once your priority. But all these only happened seven months ago. You're already gone now..

And baby, she's tearing us apart. Do you not see it yet?

But then again, its just a feeling.