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Going back to Ipoh tonight and I have a movie to catch tomorrow. After tomorrow, its gonna be war time for me. I'm going to have to study till my ass falls off for my final examination that's gonna happen one week from now. With the time I've left, I'm not going to procrastinate anymore. I hate the fact that I'm always procrastinating that leads to things not getting done in time and shiz, ugh. This time, I have to stop and starting making a move. Yes I will.

HELLO, PLEASE MAKE ME HAPPY, ANYONE.

Love,
Jojo

Unchanged

So all that you have on your mind is 'Why am I still single?', 'Does anyone wanna date me?', 'I'll date anyone that does so and so' and etc. Do you not ever get bored of yourself, even? Or are you that desperate? Its always all these questions. Not forgetting, on the other hand you're always trying so hard to prove that you are still hanging on in the pass, that you are in such pain because you still have feelings for whoever. Contradictory much? You are making yourself a joke to me, literally. I'm so sad, that you've become so shallow. Or maybe you have always been? You disgust me, really.


Love,
Jojo

Question marks.

Sometimes, life has let me down in such bad ways that I think I dont need anyone around me because people come and go, and most of them leave scars before they go. Its 3.20am right now and I'm not asleep yet. I've so much on my mind that I dont even know which thought comes first because my head's in a mess. I dont think anyone could ever understand how I feel because everyone's too busy caring about themselves or maybe I'm just that worthless. I've always wondered why do people do all these shit to me, have I not been nice enough? Or have I not given enough? Because after 18 years of living, I'm definitely sure that I've been a good friend, not perfect, but just enough to make things right. But shit still happens. I've been through numerous dramas and fights and dissappointments and letdowns even till right now, I think I've come to a certain point where I can't stand it anymore.

I think I just wanna stop caring and be alone. I'm so tired of all these that I'd rather take all the blames and insinuations just so I can shut everyone up and leave me and my life alone.

I'm so sick and tired of feeling this way, literally. Eventhough it kills me inside to look at the people I love to be treating me like nothing, I'll just let it go. I dont think I wanna hold on to anything anymore.

Love,

Jojo

Despite the constant smiling face, I'm tremendously vulnerable and small inside.

Enough said.

OK FUCK, NOW I DO REGRET OUR RELATIONSHIP.

WHY DID I FUCKING GET THAT TATTOO GODDAMNIT.

Little getaway

Its been awhile since I updated my blog. Fingers got a little lazy heheh. Alot has happened and Im too lazy to spill everything out in details.

So, I went on a day trip to KL with my uni mates and it was superfine. Shopped till we dropped and right now, I only have two bucks left in my purse. Like seriously, no joke. Thats how extreme we can get when it comes to shopping. Joeger drove us to KL like a pro, no doubt. He'svery familiar with all the roads eventho he's an Ipoh person, no idea why. We started our journey at 9 and touched down at around 10.30. And everyone dozzed off in the car like nobody's business. As soon as we reached, we went to Sg Wang and of course, us girls were very excited, walked into the mall and started scanning through all the boutiques hahaha.

Early in the morning :)

Other than that, I met up with Mr. Marc. He showed up looking like some security guard

but he looked pretty cute. He claimed that he looks more like a high class waiter, tskkk. But what happened was, I was browsing through the clothes in Topshop with him following behind me and this foreign lady came up to him and said, 'Can I try this?' I just burst out laughing at him lol.

MarcCohenHam

After we're done with our shopping spree, we had dinner and took off. We were so tired that we fell asleep not long after we got into the car. Eventhough its just a day trip but we really did enjoy it. Cant wait for out next trip, maybe somewhere else ;)

Weekend was superb with my lovelies. Xx

Love,

J